Funny how the most painful situations build character….
The beginning of July was full of emotion for me…My nephew was born and I cried tears of joy, my relationship was nearing its end and I cried tears of sadness…There were a host of birthday celebrations and changes with my career that sent me into a frenzy. I felt like I was losing my mind quite honestly…I turned to certain people for comfort and they turned away from me… I was just in a very confused and lonely place. All this time I had been there for all of these people and when I needed just a word of comfort they turned away from me.
So I was forced to be with self….talk to self…. make moves FOR and WITH self… and wow! The last couple weeks have been full of blessings and opportunities that I never imagined! Its amazing what you can see without self pitty clouding your vision. It was a God send that everyone around me refused to lend me a shoulder, it showed me who I needed to let go of as well as who I needed to pull closer.
Today I was sitting at my desk and all of a sudden I had the biggest smile on my face… I was shocked… I honestly had not truly smiled in 2months. I texted my bff and told her that “today is the day that I am FINALLY done with it”, and just like that I was over it! Self reflection is needed for growth, I have far too much to be thankful for to be sad or upset all of the time… its just not who I am. As women we sometimes place so much value on the people and things around us that we forget our own net worth…. I am a very very valuable asset… One person’s loss is another person’s gain ;-) it just feels awesome to be able to once again breathe and smile freely…its not forced…its very real… and thank God for it!
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